“a fangirl is only a fangirl because it is the only source of happiness for her”

i used to disagree with this, because i was happy with everything in the past.
then i agreed, because i was happy, because i was there for my idols.
then i disagreed again.
it was just hiding my pain and it caused me a whole lot of misery too.

i don’t know. i want to give up everything sometimes.
then i remembered all the happy memories, then i started going on again.

and yet again tomorrow, its another memory.